My How Time Flies!

I can't believe it's almost March! This year is going by so fast and yet
so slow at the same time. It's Nate's fault though because he's the one
that always reminds me of the countdown to our wedding day :). I only
like counting down when it's closer to the day, otherwise it makes it
seem like it's taking forever. As of today there are 72 days left. I'm
really excited and really nervous at the same time. I'm seriously going
through these weird back and forth feelings. I have no question or doubt
in my mind that this is right, but I have days where I get a little
scared and then I'll have days when I wish the day was today! My whole
life I have been waiting for this day and now that it's here it's really
hard to believe. I'm actually going to be married and I will actually be
having children. This isn't a dream anymore. It's real. I think today is
a scared day so this blog may sound sort of depressing. I don't want to
give anybody the wrong idea though. I love Nate so much! He is an
amazing person! He really loves me and I can see it now in everything he
says and does. We have so much fun together. Oh my gosh I laugh just
thinking about all of our silly moments. I think when I start getting
scared like this I need to just stop, take a deep breath, and realize
how lucky I am and all the great things that are now in store for me.
I'm going to have my own family! I'm going to have sons or daughters or
both! I get to play with them, teach them, help them, comfort them, hold
them, love them and have so much fun with them. It will be my family. My
Jackson family. Yay!!!!! Okay enough of all the highs and lows of my
emotions...lol. The wedding planning is going great! I have been so
lucky in all of this planning. Everything has gone so smoothly and on
schedule. I got the photographer, the church, the decorator, and my
dress all planned and bought within the first couple of weeks of the
engagement. It has been a blast! I've also been so lucky to have my mom,
Jayla, Cathi, Lindsay, Alissa, Leora, Valerie, and Christy helping me
out so much with everything. Mom has hooked us up with a caterer in
their ward that is going to give us a great deal. The food is so good
too! I'm so excited! She's also been out cake shopping for me as well.
Haven't found a cake person yet so if anyone knows of a good cake
decorator let me know! Mom has been so great and willing to do whatever
I have asked to do! Jayla has been really supportive in giving opinions
and helping Cathi plan the bridal shower with the family on May 2. She's
also doing my invitations and favors and things. So exciting! Cathi's
helped me with several different things including opinions and the
bridal shower. Lindsay is planning the bridal shower in Provo with my
friends on April 5. Alissa has helped with bridesmaid stuff and
bachelorette party planning. Leora has been so great to be willing to
take our engagement pictures in March. Valerie, Nate's Mom, has been so
great! She's been planning the whole open house in Seattle and has been
willing to do whatever I have needed her to do for the wedding and
reception here. The reception is going to be so wonderful and beautiful!
Our decorator is amazing and will make the church look great. There's
also going to be great food and desserts (we're having an amazing
dinner, cake and a chocolate fountain!!). Nate has also been a big help.
He's already planned and paid for the honeymoon, which is going to be so
amazing!! I don't even know where it is yet because Nate is keeping it a
secret, but I know that he spent A LOT of money and that it's somewhere
beautiful. I'm so excited!! My last vacation was to California for the
Hoggan reunion and I was in a hotel with Mom and Dad...lol. I have a
feeling the honeymoon will be a million times better!! :D I'm starting
my birth control on March 1. It's going to be so weird taking birth
control...lol. Anyways, Nate has also been really faithful about looking
for apartments/housing for us to live in. Haven't really found anything
yet, but I think there will be more when it gets closer to May. We're
wanting to move out of Provo. We've been here for too long. If anyone
knows of any place that's up for rent south of Provo let me know! I work
south of Provo in Payson, that's why we want to live down that way for
now. So basically everything is going great. I love being engaged and I
think being married is going to be even better! I'm so excited!! Yay!!!